I serve an awesome God...and my, does he have a sense of humor. As I self reflect, I really think my life is a joke to God. Let me explain...
I have always had a plan. I could spit out my five year plan to anyone at anytime. Now, don't get me wrong-My five year plan changes often and quite often, but there is always a plan and method of execution. Lately, I have been so discombobulated about my life. I don't know if I am coming or going. I am no longer happy. I am satisfied but not fulfilled. Understand? This concerns all aspects of my life (career, men, friends, location). I question basically everything except my faith in God. However, I am at a point where I do not have a plan. This is driving me, and my close friends, insane.
My friends get frustrated at me when I am venting because I seem flaky with my goals in life. They are correct. I am flaky. I am unsure. I am impatient. I am not questioning God, but I do wonder what I am supposed to be taking away from this experience that I have never been faced with.
Today, it hit me. I heard a quote that explained it all so clearly to me "If you want to make God laugh, make plans." That's it! At some point, I was thinking or acting as if I had control over my life. I had plans and a timeline that I always stuck with.
I believe God is trying to remind me to put all my faith and trust in him. My timeline is dependent upon HIM. And even though His plans may not come when I want them, He is ALWAYS on time!
